GRACE ♥

my life has been pretty dramatic.   0.0

I also noticed that men are SO SO MUCH more emotional and dramatic than i am.  ok girls too but that’s like expected.   That’s just so fucking unsexy.  I hate it when people have not enough wisdom to analyse the situation and do what’s appropriate to solve the problem. They let their disgusting emotions out, displaying their lack of IQ+ EQ and end up creating more trouble than solving anything at all.  All they gain is temporal satisfaction or a very temporal “solution”.   

that’s just so foolish and it makes my vagina as dry as Sahara Desert.

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Lately i also acquired this instinct to sniff out lies people tell.  Like i know it the MOMENT it’s told. hahaha..     Either that or i’ve been cheated enough to know..  HA!  NO LA.  never really been cheated.   

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Also, i have been avoiding troublesome people for the longest time.

And before you judge me, you need to understand that these people are really not worth sympathizing sometimes.   These people who have full of drama usually created all these themselves.   ARGUMENT INVALID.  go observe really….

They have such sensitive emotions and all that sort of shit and they want people to tend to them when they are “down”.  (which is like always)

they are crazy..  I’ve my own things to do..  Like looking in the mirror, combing my hair..  applying moisturizer..  why the hell do i want to attend to your habitual method of gaining attention.   it’s just weird how everybody except for them knows what the fuck they’re doing.

so anyway i’m here to put into context that drama mamas do get attention, just like steven lim, very sexy…..

I see you on the street, accompanied by a couple of friends. My pulse raced and my mind blank, my limps numbed and I pray that my legs don give way.

Should I say Hi or should I run?
I’ve been secretly hoping for this moment forever and yet when it really happens, running away is even considered. Enthralled and anguished I stood there dazing at you for a moment that felt like eternity.

Thankfully the ache in my chest helped explicate my train of thoughts. I quickly adjust my hair and brush off my emotions as much as I can. Mindlessly, or so I seems, I approach with my confidence faked with a hint of bounce. I greeted with an Oscar worthy act and a smile so warm, it was almost natural to imagine the breeze surging through my hair.

Like the lost of sunlight in a chilly afternoon, it’s gone too soon.

History repeats, we parted again.
You never chase.  Or so I mindlessly exaggerate.

-Wild thought

“You’re too smart for your own good.”

Oh maybe you’re right.. But really, what’s your point? It’s not like I can un-smart myself.

I always thought I’m self sufficient..
Well I’m, to a large extend.

Until I’m left alone to sleep, only to be reminded I’m still not able to sleep alone in a room, lights off.

Sigh..

Your guard is up and I know why.

cause the last time you saw me
It still burned in the back of your mind

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night”

It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I’d realize what I had when you were mine.

September 2011 is Marvellous! Firstly, it’s my holiday! I’ve experienced a lot of virgin experience this month.

Here are few of the highlights.

F1 Party,

at the Paddock Club. It’s my first time watching the F1 race and it’s at the Paddock Club! I was given a $8k ticket.  ;)  A appreciate it so much but lost the number of the guy who gave it to me.  he doesnt have my number so….   uh forget it.

Partying

This is the season when the social butterfly hatch from a cocoon! I gave partying a longgggg break and in Sep, I finally started to head out to party. I visited the newest clubs in Singapore like Avalon and went back to my home ground ,Zouk, to go crazy.

Went to Johnny Walker Jet Black Party and finally made new friends(nice people)after a long period of hibernation.

Phuket

IT’S THE BEST GETAWAY! And who else other than with Miss Terie Sim?

We snorkeled and travelled in a speedboat which was fantastic because the water was so rough, it threatened to capsize our boat, & in every other few second, the boat would wobble with so much impact, we could feel our tailbone threatening to fracture. But we’re young, so an hour worth of roller coaster ride is fun and enjoying wind strong enough to break our sunglasses is just sensational.

We watched PingPong Girls which was mind boggling!!!! Razors and birds and frogs and fishes came out of the vagina!!! My face was cramped from that constant cringing. Next day we went to canoe in the cave. We were VIP! Our tour guide of the day liked us so much that he gave us privilege to take over the captain and steer the boat for a while. There’s a lot more that has happened this September but sharing it is probably not what I have in mind..

So I’m gonna end it here. Cheers to September, I’ve never been happier. XO

Have you thought that whatever you’re boasting is really nothing?

Have you thought that perhaps I’ve a lot more boast worthy anecdotes but I rather not make you jealous.

You know I guess of all the things I’ve learnt in life, the hardest lesson is to actually keep my mouth shut. So far I’m doing it well, I’m enjoying the benefits that comes with my new found skill. And honestly, it’s really really difficult to keep my mouth shut.

It’s like I have puke in my throat but i refuse to let it out…. The pungent smell grows as long as the puke stays in my throat. That’s how difficult it is to keep everything to myself. It’s not natural for me to not talk about exciting stuff about my life but well… I know jealousy is part of human nature and why in the world would I want to cause harm to myself when all I can do this to shut my mouth up and enjoy life?!

Ohwell…
I’m gonna abuse my holiday by sleeping now.. 10.38am!

Ok bye

Yes I’m quiet…. And you won the argument.

Maybe it’s because I’m busy burning the bridge baby…